Recovery Stories: Lilla's ME recovery story

"Having managed my energy and life for 6 years after severe M.E. initially lasting about 2 years, it returned with force: I didn't know how I'd got well the first time - whether it was the touch for health healing, the acupuncture, the wheat free diet, the healing symbol therapy, the meditation, the supplements, the journalling, my will or a myriad of other approaches I'd tried.

That familiar helpless feeling was back: I had no energy to exercise, socialise, or work...it was like trying to look down a blind alley with a bag over my head and my hands tied behind my back. I spent months in a fog valiantly researching on The Net for some insight into the cause of ME, and importantly anything I could do that would effect permanent change and put my life back in my own hands.

When I came across Phil's training and was deciding whether or not to do it, I asked myself the question 'do you want to be well and healed of M.E.?' Back came the answer 'no: I don't want to leave the house, or go into the world and make a living, or stop receiving all this loving support from friends, or take responsibility for myself'. I recognised it was important for me to include these rather shocking responses, then moved through them in moments to a resounding 'yes, I do want to be well'.

From that moment I was committed to my journey & the training, and ready to get all the value I could stand: I was really willing to put the work in. Money flowed to me, and I started to reconnect with the idea of being back in the driving seat of my life.

From the second day of applying The Lightning Process training with gusto and determination:I was awake at 7am, happy, walking for a mile or two, clear headed, present in the world....a week later I have taught two classes of children and felt energised! Walked for an hour or more a day, gardened, worked on my book every day and a design commission, partied, and am going to bed at midnight.

Found myself singing out loud that song 'I can see clearly now the rain is gone, I can see all obstacles in my way, gone are the dark clouds that had me blind, it's going to be a bright sun-shiney day.' Which is close to a metaphor for the Lightning Training for me."